I need to start slow. You have to crawl before you can walk but I want to do gymnastics before I crawl. I’ve always been like this with new interests. I want to do world-changing things but I barely know the basics. So I’m starting slow, building my skills, learning what I need to learn before I go too far. I always go too far. I over think and try to do too much, go too far, when I don’t have a good base to come back to. That base is what I’m building right now, what I’m learning.
I have to learn to crawl and I have to keep reminding myself of that fact. It’s great to want to fly but it’s just not possible yet. I have to read more, study more, memorize a lot more. Memory is key at this point. Memory is always key. I’m getting there, though. One bit at a time, hand over hand. It’s going to be fun, I know it is. I just have to keep working at it.
My biggest block is forgetfulness. I get a feeling for something, an interest, and I pursue it. It encompasses everything for a while, every waking moment. That feeling fades, like most interests do, until eventually I forget the interest itself. It falls by the wayside, something I only know a bit about and was fascinated with for a little while. I don’t want to do that here. I want to keep going. I want to learn more, to actually make something someone can enjoy from it and use that to continue on, to keep making interesting and fun things.
To get past my block I need a habit. I need to get in the habit of doing something with my interest every day. It’s how I built up to writing every day. I have to do research, practice, make a habit of wanting to know more and do more every day until it sticks. I have to feed my interest, build it into an obsession I can control. It’s not a bad thing, not a scary thing. I don’t want this to go by the wayside. I didn’t want my writing to fall by the wayside and it never did. I built a good foundation and developed from there. Now I need to do the same with my new interest, build a good base I can operate from. It’s just a matter of time and effort. Now, I’m off to apply this effort to building that base and making something! Woo!
The Quick, Not The Dead 